Transparent

So I'm just going to be real with you.  Transparent.

Something I'm not all that good at.

The longer I am pregnant the less hope I have that I will actually get to bring my baby home with me.

Backwards thinking, huh?

I know it's totally satan messing with me.

But it's how I feel.

I just have to remind myself....my hope is in the Lord. 

He will not leave us or forsake us.

Worship music is a must for me right now. 

It's the only way I will make it through this week until I have my sweet baby girl in my arms.

What's Happening??

In case you haven't heard....our sweet girl did not make her grand entrance into this world today. 

Yesterday I had an amnio done, which revealed that her lungs are not quite ready.

Of course it's hard news to swallow, when you have your heart set on meeting your baby!

However, we know it's much better for her to stay in there & keep growing so when she does arrive, she'll be healthy!

After the amnio, I didn't feel good all day & it progressively got worse as the evening went on.

I had a lower back ache, cramping & a weird pain in my upper right side.  By the end of the night I could barely walk. 

I did not think I was in labor, but I knew it wasn't right.  We called the doc & they wanted us to go in to get it all checked out just to make sure the baby & I were okay.

We spent a few hours being observed & were sent home.

We're waiting results from a urine analysis to see if I have some kind of infection.  We should know the results by the morning.

I still don't feel all that great, but I'm not nearly as uncomfortable as I was last night.

We'll have another amnio on Monday to see if this baby girls lungs are developed and if they are, she will arrive late Tuesday morning.

And if they aren't mature?  Well lets not even get started on that.  I just might need to be checked into the looney bin. 

The Great MN Get Together!!!!

Cheese curds, deep fried pickles, pronto pups, fudge puppy's, giant pickle, deep fried cheese on a stick, deep fried candy bar on a stick, quesadilla's, gizmo sandwich, smoothies, cotton candy, corn on the cob, taffy. 

I think that's it. 

That is what we ate at the fair last week when we went on opening day!! 

Thank goodness we were there for over 7 hours & shared just about everything. 

Otherwise, can you say heart attack!!!!!

Here are some picture highlights!!

I did a lot of this.....sitting in the shade!

We did more than just eat....David, Caleb & Erika at the top of the giant slide!

Caleb was too fast so I didn't get a picture of him going down the slide, but I did get Daddy & Erika!

This was one thing Erika REALLY wanted....a giant pickle!!!  The girl LOVES her pickles.  I wanted to get a picture of it before she devoured half of it, but I wasn't quick enough!

Yummy corn on the cob.  I wish I knew how they made it so I could duplicate it!  SO YUMMY!!!!

Choo Choo Bob's was at the fair, which if you know anything about Caleb, then you know this was the highlight of his day!  They had a little show and a cool layout with wooden trains they could play with.

Next up was rides!  Caleb likes rides, but he is very cautious.  He has fun usually but doesn't typically show it on his face until after the ride is over.  Erika on the other hand, that girl has no fear & likes to give her mommy a heart attack!!  She giggled the ENTIRE time on this swing ride.

This was her favorite ride!!  She called it the "tummy flying ride" 

Caleb liked this one too, I think he felt secure so he let himself enjoy it! 

Erika went a 2nd time with Caleb! 

The last treat of the day....pure sugar!!

We made one last stop on the way to the car.....the Miracle of Birth Barn!

These cuties were less than 24 hours old!

This one was only 10 or 12 hours old!  Amazing!

And these little piglets were about 9 hours old!

We ended up having a great day at the fair!!!!  Wish we could go again....just thinking about some of the food makes my mouth water! 

Probably our favorite new thing we tried this year was the deep fried candy bars!  The Reese's Peanut Butter cups were the best!!  Next time we'll have to try to deep fried oreo's!