Most people only dream of angels. We've held one.
Today Dylan is five. Five in heaven.
Not here with us like we had hoped and prayed he would be.
He is safe in the arms of Jesus
Not here with us like we had hoped and prayed he would be.
He is safe in the arms of Jesus
and there is no better place for him to be.
That doesn't make it any easier though.
Ultimately, our children are a gift from God.
That doesn't make it any easier though.
Ultimately, our children are a gift from God.
It's just that giving one back so soon is painful & heartbreaking.
I am typing this entire post with blurry eyes
& tears streaming down my face.
I miss Dylan. This mommy's heart is still broken, missing him.
A piece of our family will forever be missing.
We will forever grieve the absense of Dylan in our family.
I think we will forever wonder what he would be like,
I miss Dylan. This mommy's heart is still broken, missing him.
A piece of our family will forever be missing.
We will forever grieve the absense of Dylan in our family.
I think we will forever wonder what he would be like,
The role he would play in our family.
And I think that's normal.
The days of feeling like your heart has been ripped out
And I think that's normal.
The days of feeling like your heart has been ripped out
and you are at the depths of despair have passed long ago.
But we still miss Dylan.
He's a part of our family.
That is something we have always said was very important to us.
He may not be physically here for people to see,
But we still miss Dylan.
He's a part of our family.
That is something we have always said was very important to us.
He may not be physically here for people to see,
but he is most definitely a part of our family.
The only time we saw Dylan alive was when we had our 20 week ultrasound.
The only time we saw Dylan alive was when we had our 20 week ultrasound.
I will forever cherish those pictures.
He was perfect. The placenta was perfect.
How things can change in just 10 short weeks.
Even though we didn't get to know Dylan, he knew us.
Even though we didn't get to know Dylan, he knew us.
Oh, how comforting that is.
He knew my voice and probably his daddy's voice too.
And his foot knew my ribs all to well. :)
While there are so many unknowns,
He knew my voice and probably his daddy's voice too.
And his foot knew my ribs all to well. :)
While there are so many unknowns,
why's and what could have been's,
there is one thing we are certain of.
We WILL see Dylan again.
We WILL see Dylan again.
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I came across a song by Mandisa recently, and I just love it.
I came across a song by Mandisa recently, and I just love it.
It's one of those songs that I feel like I could have written.
The emotions portrayed by the words are just amazing to me.
Reading the words and thinking back to shortly after we had Dylan,
it describes exactly how we felt.
We knew we served a faithful God (and still do).
We knew we served a faithful God (and still do).
We never stopped praising Him,
even when we were hurting so deeply.
With my love and my sadness
I come before You Lord
My heart’s in a thousand pieces
Maybe even more
Yet I trust in this moment
You’re with me somehow
And You’ve always been faithful
So Lord even now
When all that I can sing
Is a broken hallelujah
When my only offering
Is shattered praise
Still a song of adoration
Will rise up from these ruins
I will worship You and give You thanks
Even when my only praise
Is a broken hallelujah
Oh Father, You have given
Much more than I deserve
And I have felt
Your hand of blessing
On me at every turn
How could I doubt Your goodness
Your wisdom, Your grace
So Lord hear my heart
In this painful place
Chorus
Hallelujah
I lift my voice
Your Spirit moves
I raise my hands
I reach for You
Chorus
With my love and my sadness
I come before You Lord
My heart’s in a thousand pieces
Maybe even more
Yet I trust in this moment
You’re with me somehow
And You’ve always been faithful
So Lord even now
When all that I can sing
Is a broken hallelujah
When my only offering
Is shattered praise
Still a song of adoration
Will rise up from these ruins
I will worship You and give You thanks
Even when my only praise
Is a broken hallelujah
Oh Father, You have given
Much more than I deserve
And I have felt
Your hand of blessing
On me at every turn
How could I doubt Your goodness
Your wisdom, Your grace
So Lord hear my heart
In this painful place
Chorus
Hallelujah
I lift my voice
Your Spirit moves
I raise my hands
I reach for You
Chorus
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Although poorly edited & blurry, this is my favorite picture of Dylan.
I love his little lips and nose. He looks just like Caleb.
Happy 5th Heavenly Birthday Dylan!
Happy 5th Heavenly Birthday Dylan!
Sweet baby boy, you will forever be missed.
We press on with the hope of one day getting to heaven and seeing you again.
We love you and miss you more than words can ever express!
Love you,
Mommy & Daddy
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